Inside the Rebellion of Saints

this is for all the kids who glow in the dark. I'm the narrator and this is just the prologue.

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So after almost 21 years I’ve come to this conclusion:

I’m gonna just live my life and let God take care of the details.

Sounds very cliche, but for real.

I don’t think I’ve ever REALLY let myself go entirely. When I try to micromanage everything in my life I usually ruin it and make things far more complicated than they need to be. Frankly I’m tired and ready to be free of the drama my life has been in the past. The endless extreme highs and lows. Life doesn’t need to be this way. So it finally donned on me…well maybe I really should do what I’ve been claiming to do all along: give it to GOD!

So I’m just gonna live. I’m gonna do my best as the woman I am and the woman I want to be. If I’m caught up in Him and all that He has in store for me I can only expect the best things right?

I’m not gonna push anything, look for anything, I’m just gonna pull a Beatles and LET IT BE!

If God wants to place a man in my life, by all means, but I’m just gonna be chillin’ here. If God decides to surprise me and send me to a convent (and boy oh boy would that be a surprise), I’ll be sitting here doing my thang. 

Right now I can only be satisfied and happy with what I have. It doesn’t make sense to ask for any more or wish I had something I don’t. It makes my life an unhappy one and I don’t wanna be unhappy any longer.

So um yeah. 

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Our Lady of the Lake representing! (at Steubenville Atlanta Conference 2014)
This past week has been SO beautiful! Not only did I get to serve as a small group leader for a week at the CLI (Catholic Leadership Institute) retreat for our diocese, but I was also able to be the “youth minister” for our little group that went to the Steubenville ATL conference. It was so great to let God use me & then sit back and watch Him at work in these teens hearts. Literally AMAZING. I was so honored and proud to serve them and LOVE them more importantly. I think I learned as much from them as they did from me. 
I have so much hope for the young Church.
After two years of being at Franciscan learning the Faith more and being served, it was nice to actually serve again! if nothing else this week of continually craziness really confirmed that the Lord is calling me to serve the Church as a youth minister. And boy oh boy is it a vocation! I have so much more respect for youth ministers now & what they do after literally experiencing it firsthand truly for the first time. It’s so much responsibility but a joyful cross to carry none the less!
This was my 4th CLI retreat & 6th Steubenville conference. I learned so much from both not only in high school when I attended, but also this time as a leader.
And for the first time at a Steubenville conference I actually got up and responded to the vocations call to religious life. NEVER in a million years did I think that would ever happen. But I decided I couldn’t claim to have given everything to Christ if I never allowed myself to be truly open to serving Him in this way. It seemed entirely natural. Like “it’s time to surrender this too, Mary Beth.” I honestly couldn’t tell you 100% where He’s calling me now. And that’s a first for my life, since I’ve always “known.” But considering that I still haven’t met the “one”, I figured it was time to keep my options open and maybe let the Creator of the Universe figure it out. I surely haven’t done a good job on my own. And for the first time I really feel satisfied and at peace with the whole thing.
"…wherever You would call me…"
So yeah I don’t really know anything except that I need to keep working on a lot in my life and growing closer to God. I needed this week to really renew that perhaps and it did. Sometimes you forget the little things along the way. All I wanna do is serve Him forever & always anywhere and everywhere that takes me. I haven’t stopped yet and I’m not planning to. I’ve never told God no, but perhaps it’s time to take it a step further. 
It’s time to start discerning! *cringe* I’ve never said that before! And it feels weird but good. haha
Your will be done, not mine. 

[oh and btw my brother got up for the vocations call as well. He didn’t just get up, HE RAN to the feet of the priest. I have never been so proud & surprised in my whole life. God is so infinitely good.]

Our Lady of the Lake representing! (at Steubenville Atlanta Conference 2014)

This past week has been SO beautiful! Not only did I get to serve as a small group leader for a week at the CLI (Catholic Leadership Institute) retreat for our diocese, but I was also able to be the “youth minister” for our little group that went to the Steubenville ATL conference. It was so great to let God use me & then sit back and watch Him at work in these teens hearts. Literally AMAZING. I was so honored and proud to serve them and LOVE them more importantly. I think I learned as much from them as they did from me. 

I have so much hope for the young Church.

After two years of being at Franciscan learning the Faith more and being served, it was nice to actually serve again! if nothing else this week of continually craziness really confirmed that the Lord is calling me to serve the Church as a youth minister. And boy oh boy is it a vocation! I have so much more respect for youth ministers now & what they do after literally experiencing it firsthand truly for the first time. It’s so much responsibility but a joyful cross to carry none the less!

This was my 4th CLI retreat & 6th Steubenville conference. I learned so much from both not only in high school when I attended, but also this time as a leader.

And for the first time at a Steubenville conference I actually got up and responded to the vocations call to religious life. NEVER in a million years did I think that would ever happen. But I decided I couldn’t claim to have given everything to Christ if I never allowed myself to be truly open to serving Him in this way. It seemed entirely natural. Like “it’s time to surrender this too, Mary Beth.” I honestly couldn’t tell you 100% where He’s calling me now. And that’s a first for my life, since I’ve always “known.” But considering that I still haven’t met the “one”, I figured it was time to keep my options open and maybe let the Creator of the Universe figure it out. I surely haven’t done a good job on my own. And for the first time I really feel satisfied and at peace with the whole thing.

"…wherever You would call me…"

So yeah I don’t really know anything except that I need to keep working on a lot in my life and growing closer to God. I needed this week to really renew that perhaps and it did. Sometimes you forget the little things along the way. All I wanna do is serve Him forever & always anywhere and everywhere that takes me. I haven’t stopped yet and I’m not planning to. I’ve never told God no, but perhaps it’s time to take it a step further. 

It’s time to start discerning! *cringe* I’ve never said that before! And it feels weird but good. haha

Your will be done, not mine. 

[oh and btw my brother got up for the vocations call as well. He didn’t just get up, HE RAN to the feet of the priest. I have never been so proud & surprised in my whole life. God is so infinitely good.]

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Authority…

…people say I have a problem with it.
And well yes that might be true. I came out of the womb kicking and screaming, because despite being 10 days late I wasn’t ready in my own mind to be thrown out into the world. I’ve been kicking and screaming my way through life ever since …I suppose you could say.

I’m defiant.

I have a habit of going right simply because I was instructed to go left.
Like the late James Dean, I fancy myself to be a rebel without a cause (hence my blog name…among other reasons). 
I think the truth of the matter above all else is this: I value my freedom (of both speech & action) as well as my God-given free will above anything else in life. I don’t trust people who tell me what to do, because frankly the only person I believe anyone has to answer to is God. And honestly how can anyone be sure of whats best for me if they don’t walk in my shoes? It’s quite rational really. 
When it comes to people in positions of authority…I often wonder how they could fancy themselves to be anything better than what I am. We are all the same, all fallen creatures, all children of one Divine Being who lives outside of time and space. Obedience to anyone other than God in my opinion is slavery. I will be a slave to no one. 

Most people that claim to be “bosses” or “managers” don’t take the time to earn my trust or respect, it’s either naturally assumed or demanded. This isn’t the right way to go about anything. I will never respond to demands. 

I live by a certain code of rebellion.

I live by my own rules.

This rant is now over. 

Thanks for listening/reading.

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Who is this Jesus you worship? [an alternative & realistic look at Jesus Christ - Messiah]

I always find it a bit odd when I observe the images people conjure up of Jesus Christ.

It’s like we’re reading two entirely different Bibles at times.

 
The world has fallen for this portrait of a caucasian, tender-hearted, pushover with an unusual love for bright colored clothing. [Jesus was a poor Jew…]

 

This isn’t quite the vision that comes to mind when I read the Scriptures. Jesus knew the truth and he let it set Him free - fully human and fully divine, He walked as one among us.

The Jesus I praise was/is an unconventional, controversial, rebellious badass with serious balls. He was point blank, frank, blunt even. Unafraid to call it like He saw it. He turned tables - literally. Often times He would just call people out for what they were - religious hypocrites, close minded, and racist (take the story of the good Samaritan for example). Sure He had a soft spot for the underdog, but that didn’t make Him a wimp by any means.

Jesus was a full blood Jew in the royal line of King David (the badass who killed Goliath). His fingers were probably callused, His skin dark and worn from years of hot carpentry work in Israel’s harsh climate. He most likely wore humble garments that were far from white (and not clean by today’s standards) and His hair probably wasn’t kept.

My Jesus was a radical revolutionary. One might even call Him a hippie of sorts - living by a message of peace, hope and equality for all of God’s creation. So where exactly the modern mainstream image of Jesus originated from I can’t seem to figure out. When people speak of Jesus, sometimes I have to stifle a laugh. I’m sure from up in Heaven at the right hand of the Father, Jesus chuckles a little bit too.

Perhaps we need to rediscover the Scriptures and remember our fearless and bold Savior. A man who was tender enough to welcome children into His arms, yet firm enough to turn the whole world upside down, bringing people to their knees. He wasn’t afraid to turn the other cheek, but He certainly wasn’t afraid to let His voice be heard either.

This is the Man-God that early Christians were willing to suffer extreme torture and executions for at the hands of the Romans.

Clearly this God, messiah, prophet, teacher, Lord, savior is unconventional.

Part of me can’t help but paint this picture in my mind of Jesus with two bold fingers up in the face of the nagging pharisees. 
…but that’s just me…and I’m weird.

I suppose the beauty and appeal of Jesus Christ is the fact that He is the Savior of all for all. There are no boundaries or limits to His love and mercy. It’s just hardcore 24/7 lovin’. He can be whatever we want Him to be because He wants our relationship to be personal and intimate. 

So whether your faith is catered to the common caucasian Jesus of Western pop culture, or my rugged and radical one, the point essentially is this: Jesus does love you individually with a fiercely unconventional and passionate love. And that I hope is something we can all agree on. :)

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Prayer for the Virtue of Chastity

acatholicvibe:

Jesus, Fortress of mankind,

You are Immaculate as God and Man!

Bless me with Your infinite graces,

That I may remain in a state of purity.

Strengthen my body, spirit and soul

To continually reflect Your chastity.

Protect my soul in its daily struggles,

Guiding it to ponder on Your Godliness.

Defend me from the forces of evil,

Those that seek to acquire my soul:

I am truly Yours forever and ever.

Holy is my King, the Conqueror of sin!
Amen. 

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You deserve to be pursued. You deserve all of those “good morning beautiful” texts. You deserve to be dreamed about. You deserve a man that will be awestruck by you. WHY? Because God made you something special. And whether you like it or not, SOMEONE WILL LOVE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE. All of the faults. All the dirt under your skin. The baggage and the scars. The fears and the failures. They say there’s someone for everyone, and I believe that’s perfectly true. God made you for someone. Sure they’re taking their sweet time (and YES it does get aggravating waiting for them to find you), but they ARE coming and they DO exist. You gotta believe that. You gotta believe someone is gonna love you. Someone is going to find you to be beautiful and see you as God does. On the days when there seems to be nothing left, you’ve got to hold onto this because THIS is TRUTH. There IS someone out there going through the same shit that you are. They are wondering when they’re gonna find you. And they WANT you. They want to be with you and share all those funny moments, all those kisses and hugs. Someone out there DOES want to love you.

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IT’S THE 3RD DAY!!! HE HAS RISEN AGAIN! <3

Happy Easter Sunday ya’ll! I hope it is blessed.

"Sin has lost its power, death has lost its sting, from the grave You’ve risen victoriously! Into marvelous light I’m running out of darkness, out of shame, by the Cross You are the truth, You are the life, You are the way!" ♥ :)

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Here’s the thing. I’m watching this movie called “Mary of Nazareth” where Mary the Mother of God is played by the actress who was Anakin Skywalker’s mom in the Phantom Menace, and Jesus is Christian Bale (ie Batman). I’ve always had a huge crush on Christian Bale, so though this might just be the most EPIC retelling of our salvation history, I can’t help but feeling like I may be in a state of sin by crushing on Jesus…

this is the one time it would NOT be technically heretical to say “Christian Bale is God”… All I gotta say is if some girl who’s also in love with Mr. Bale happens to watch this movie just for the sake of seeing him and hears the Gospel for the first time…hey I mean it can’t be THAT bad! 

…but seriously I can’t handle myself right now.

He is literally one of the most beautiful creatures God ever made so this role to me is entirely appropriate. 

As if I couldn’t love Christian Bale any more, now he’s playing God.

Lord, please forgive me. 

It’s perfect.

It’s God + Christian Bale = my heart

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